I come here most days
after school. Dad says it’s ok, so I
head straight away to my
friends, the chickens; I help them
dig for worms. Sometimes
a school friend drops by too
and we race up the stacked bags
of guano; they’re almost warehouse high, our
voices muffled like we’re in a cave. Later,
when it’s time to go, I sit and wait
for Dad, stare at old pictures
on the wall. A bomber
plane in camouflage, the rows of cheerful
men before it with little to smile
about, Dad said. I can
point to his friend, the rear
gunner who never gets out. I’m stuck in
there, spinning round
and round in the noise, the ground’s
approach quickening— then nothing—
until this awareness
and I am his son
© copyright David F. Barker 2012
*Notes: When I was seven or eight years old, my Dad used to work in a warehouse and I did play with the chickens, climb the bags of guano. There was an office, with a picture of an old British Blenheim bomber, with rows of RAF men lined up in front…
A lovely piece of nostalgia that builds to an unexpected end, great job.
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oy i would def not want to be a tail gunner….pretty intense emotionally there in the end as well…the spinning and feeling like you are not going to make it out…pretty cool opening as well feeling a bit of coming of age…
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oh i can really see the scene and also smell it…guano..my mom uses it in the garden…peaceful scene and then war comes it….so sorry for your dad’s friend..
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Thanks so much Claudia!
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Wonderful poem – this kind of awakening is very powerful. k.
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Always a wonderful story – especially love the ending with the boys ( your) imagination. K
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I could ‘see’ this in my mind’s eye.
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Nicely observed and clever merger of real and story in the actions of the child
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breathtaking. had to swallow my tears… thank you for sharing.
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Wow…just a complete immersion into that seat, the spinning, the pulsing fear, then…the awakening…and still, life goes on…to know that your Dad lived through that, to be there for you, to know his friend did not…quite a write…
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Wonderful story telling and imagery, David, but, yes, sorry for the sad memories, too~
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I really liked your poem my brother…thanks for sharing!
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memento mori ~ I think that’s the term ~ love this, so evocative
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This sounds like you think you are the reincarnated dead gunner — born to his surviving comrade. I had a bizarre dream of reincarnation from the war. But maybe that is not what you meant.
Though I am not sure what you mean, I really enjoyed the reminiscence.
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Dad told me the story of when he was in the army and there was a friend of his, who was a belly gunner, and someone forgot to lock the latch on the plastic bubble and it opened when the plane was flying. His friend had no choice but to hold on for dear life until they realized what had happened.
Scott
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Beautifully done piece!
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Thank you!!! Of course, I don’t really think I am his reincarnation but it make for interesting reading – perhaps.
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Thank you so much!
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Evocative and your adoption of the POV of the rear gunner at the end empathetic and transformative, it worked very well for me. Beautifully done.
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David that was heart wrenching…reading those lines of rear gunner…
beautiful powerful poem
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You do haunting really well. But I’ve got to tell you, I don’t much appreciate the youtube adverts at the end of your post. My opinion, but you’re better than that.
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It must have been very interesting to a young boy studying the faces in the old war-era photos. I can easily picture you placing yourself in the story of your own concoction! Lovely and nostalgic, and at the same time timeless. Young boys will always be curious about the stories of their father’s lives, I think. Debra
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Yes! Thank you so much, Debra.
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Hi. I like the narrative in the poem. I have been thinking a lot about line breaks lately and I think you have them very well done in this poem. Each idea is made more thought-provoking by the breaks… an example is the ‘racing up the stacked bags’… and the discovery that they are of ‘guano’…. Jane
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Beatifully written memory and alive with that little boy
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